God is my Shepherd and my Hope (part 2)

The college ages should be the exciting times for youngster, times to express theirself, times to prepare their future. I should do it as well, keeping what God’s given to me, but…I let myself destroy it!

It began with my over protected father about man and woman relationship. He didn’t agree about my relationship with Bayu, my first love. In about 6 years long we had our relationship, but my father never opens his heart. He didn’t want us to get along…it hurt me, made me to resist anything he wants…

Until in 1998 I met someone who wanted to get along with me, but in destructive way. Since I was with Yudha, my life was a mess; I started to tell a lie to my parents, neglecting my college, and forgot about my faith to the Lord. Days by days, my life went to the darkness, it was about going to crashed!

My mother realized about the changing of my lives, she saw that I was different, I was not me anymore…I was not her beloved daughter she was given birth.
I didn’t know what was happened to me, felt empty…I just live on my own life.
One day, she asked me to attend in the retreat services in my church, it changed my lives. In the retreat, my mother put her hands on me, cried and prayed…I didn’t know what the prayer was about, but I felt something happened inside me. Many voices…powers tried to drag me in their side. Since that moment, I encountered many experiences.

I met Bayu again one time…I felt terrible and I didn’t know why, I started to hate Yudha and wanted to leave him. I knew I chose the wrong path, but I had to go back…
We’re in a bad argument when I said about my decision to leave him. He didn’t want to leave me, and swore that my lives would be terrible without him; I would never be succeeding without him…even in getting a job.

But I made up my mind, I was not afraid about the curses.
I knew that My Lord has forgiven me; I have powerful Lord who owns my life. There’s nothing can touch me, He will protects me and gives me a way out…my future is on His hands. I heard from my friend in college that Yudha used the darkness power to get along with me. He tried harder to get me back to be his lover. Many paranormals were hired to grab me; they worked in the same time and from every side.
Thanks God, it didn’t work on me. I called His name again and again…every minute…seconds I surrendered my lives to Him. Amazingly, the paranormal later on said that there’s a ring protection covered me, and could not be broken. Hallelujah…the power inside me is stronger than any spirits…

Almost four years long he tried. Many times when I was asleep, the demons tried to drag me down. I saw myself inside the darkness and they pulled me in…it’s hurt, I was just screaming calling to my Jesus. He did help me out; in Jesus name I’d been saved. Thanks God, since I was away from Yudha, I felt alive again and even I could finish my college in about 4 years and 3 months. Wonderfully, I got good marks as well.

I really realized God’s hands on me. When I worked on my thesis, from my Mentor Mrs. Yuli, she introduced me with someone who later on taught me to finish my thesis. It took only 1 month to finish it. When the thesis test come, He gave wisdom…I could answer all of the questions. Many students said that the test was so tense and very difficult, but amazingly…it’s easy for me. It’s so relax and enjoying. Praise the Lord!
Great thanks to my families that always stand by my side, lift up their prayers for me. Thanks to Mr. Agustinus Yudi, SH for your helps, a friend who always willing to teach me on my thesis, thanks to Mrs. Sri Wahyuningsih Yulianti, SH; Mr. Edi Herdyanto, SH and Mrs. Lusiana Marianingsih, SH; for all of your support…but above all, thank you my Jesus Lord!


THE BEST COULD BE ACHIEVED IF WE KEEP ON SETTING OUR EYES TO THE FUTURE WITHOUT NEGLECTING THE PAST AND ALWAYS GRATEFUL FOR THE PRESENT!
by PS.JOSE CAROL




composed by: Riena M Kusuma N, SH